I think that the single most destructive force working against me starting or even finishing anything is my perfectionism. Let me relay an example: I have not posted anything on my blog for a couple of weeks. Why? Because my last post was, in my opinion, "good" and I cannot think of anything recently that would match up to the quality of it. See! My need for everything I do to be some sort of feat of excellence prevents me from doing anything much of the time. I suppose I could remedy this by doing a load of things that would be sub-par in some way, but I do not think that would help me. I need to find a way to be okay with some things being very good, some mediocre and some terrible, which I would classify as a mistake and strive not to do again. So I hope this post is sufficiently mediocre for everyone who is reading it.
Moving on to a new subject, lets discuss some thoughts that have come from my first day at university (this fall). My first thoughts were simply, well, back into the swing of things, vaguely indifferent, blah, blah. Then as I went to my first day of classes and began to see all of the work that I will have to do this year in order to simply not fail and etc I got a feeling that can most accuratly be described as "PANIC"! How did I get myself into this stress abyss again? And if I didn't that was enough, I have decided to work while going to school as well. Perfect. So now I just don't know how this whole situation is going to work. Am I going to be able to handle the workload, or will I be crushed by a steamroller called "stress"? Only time will tell I suppose.
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I think it might well be worth noting that even God isn't a perfectionist. He created a whole bunch of stuff that was "good" but only one thing that was "very good" (Us!). But notice that NOWHERE, contrary to popular belief, is the word "perfect" used to describe God's creation in Genesis. So, unless you're trying to outdo God, drop the whole perfectionist thing! It's too heavey a burden to bear.
Just make sure to take the time to "recreate" yourself. Don't let the stress take over.
I used to have a friend who was such a perfectionist that she never had her assignments in on time. In fact, the longer you waited after they were due, the bigger a percentage that was taken off and she always had her work done on time but she would review it until the absolute deadline when she would get a zero and then she would hand it in right before just so she could get marks. But she was always completely unsatisfied with ever assignment she did. It was crazy. She could have been on the honor roll if she just handed it in on time and stopped worrying about it not being absolutely perfect.
So you're really not that bad yet. Just don't go in that direction because it drives everyone else crazy, if not yourself.
Try to think of University as a giant pie. It's too big to eat all at once, but one bite at a time and you'll get to the end eventually. Besides, pie is good, and it can't hurt to imagine everything as being pie. I mean, if you get a choice between real heaven and pie heaven, choose pie heaven. It may be a trick, but if it's not MMMM boy!
Thanks so much for reading my blog! It's always so cool to hear that someone enjoyed what they read. And I must say I enjoy yours as well...it's very deep but in a light way if that makes any sense. Anyway, love you lots!
Heather!! I love reading your blog! I just have to get myself on the computer more often!!
Love you!
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